Urg.

I tried writing a post yesterday, I really did. I had a lot of things recently that's been keeping me from really contributing much to this, though it's given me a lot to write about. The stupid thing is, when I try to write a post, I forget everything I want to write about, or how I want to write it, to really connect my thoughts to the words.

I know these blog posts have been depressing, and there's no real excuse for that, I tend to bitch and rant about stuff when I do decide to comment on things, and I don't talk a lot about most of what I think about with other people (I tend to play my cards close to my chest, so to speak), so it feels like it's all been pouring out into these posts.

Long story short, I wanted to write a post on hope. I was even trying to think of a interesting title for it, maybe something to do with the only good thing to come out of Pandora's box, etc. But whatever, I'm getting my thoughts down one way or another. I'm really losing hope in humanity as a whole. Every now and then I come across one or two people that really have it going for them, know what they are doing, help others where they can, you know, just all around good people. (Random aside: Ha-HAH, droid blogger! I have unveiled your secrets of how to italicize text without giving me a major headache! Victory is sweet!) These good people keep that hope alive, but things like the recent rioting in England has really disrupted that hope. Looting and rapings after hurricane Katrina. The Libya situation with Ghdaffy Duck. How people can call that human nature is shocking. Granted, I was lucky most of my life, I was never a victim of poverty, I almost never had to go without. But I also understand in this day and age that morals should be the groundwork of any society, and any society that is amoral at its roots is destined to crumble and rot from the inside out. To come to the point where people are causing mass mayhem and disruption seemingly without reason (or at best if there is one, it's a terrible excuse), where a shop is vandalized and looted by the very regulars who used to frequent it and were acquaintances of the shopkeeper...this is pure lunacy.

It's as if humanity is reverting more and more back into the dark ages, however I believe with technology in this day and age, we're headed for a future that looks a lot like the movie Idiocracy.

I just want to be able to look out at the world and know I'll have a good life lined up for my wife and future child. That's all I want. I think it's all anyone wants, along with a good life for themselves, but if we as a species keep on this trend of rampant joyriding destruction of each other's lives, we're going to have to switch the definitions of humanity and inhumanity in the dictionary.